It seems like one of the hardest things in the world is to try to help a friend who is inconsolable. Or also to be inconsolable, even with the help of a friend. It's so nice to give advice that really helps and so nice to get advice that can somehow pull you out of whatever you're feeling.
Sometimes, when I'm inconsolable, I try to have faith. I have a book that says you should triumph in God's gifts to you, even before he has given them, because you have faith that he will.
So, last night I was sick, feeling terrible, unable to sleep, but so so tired..and I had such little faith that I'd be feeling better today. I thought to myself, the problem is that I'm not sure what I deserve. It's hard to have faith that you'll feel better, when perhaps you don't deserve to feel better. Terrible things happen to people all the time, right - who's to say I won't be one of them?
Today, trying to get to the doctor, the cab I had requested sent me a message saying it'd be SO late, I wouldn't make my appointment at all. Just then, a bus came. When I left the doctor's office, it was raining, and I thought, oh no, I have to wait here in the cold and probably no cab will come (ok London has a serious shortage of cabs). Just then, one appeared! I'm not saying I understand how God works all the time. I guess I'm just saying that maybe it pays to be consolable, and maybe one of the ways to do that, when things seem so sad and unfortunate, is to have faith that...well, something good will happen.
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