don't nail yourself to the floor.  don't force yourself into certain pictures of happiness.  allow yourself to see yourself for who you are.  be kind to yourself.  embrace yourself.  and your journey!  there is no reason to think that this world is going to come crumbling down.  you gave yourself a gift, you gave so many people a gift, by being your own light, by just being that unique kind of joy that is inside of you.  you think it's not there, but it is!  you LOVE sitting around and thinking about things.  you love leaning on trees.  and taking in art.  and living from your heart.  and giving people gifts.  and listening to music that makes your spirit dance.  and dancing.  and meeting new people and finding out who they are and what makes them tick, without any really need or desire from them at all.  and you love trying new things, and growing.  and pushing yourself, and going to new places, and then just being there.  just sitting there are letting the atmosphere seep into your skin like sunlight.  you love giving hugs.  long ones!  you love being you.  you love meditating and stretching your body beyond where you even thought it could go.  you love sitting in the grass.  you love reading enchanting novels.  you love lying around for an entire saturday and not leaving the house (but note, that could be a lack of spirit energy talking).  you love skipping.  do not restrict yourself to what others want or need.  do not attach yourself to how they make you feel degraded.  be your own light.  remember that you have a home in God and he has a home in you.  he is not some pretty pastel painting.  he is love and joy and understanding and true, glowing green-yellow compassion.  take joy in just living this life just seeing what new adventure unfolds.  love and nurture this spirit-love, this grand excitement, this freshness, this youth within you.  do not latch on, child, to your job or your grade or the way all those people - any people - think of you.  be love itself, in your own life and in others' lives too.  don't rest all your hopes and your happiness on one grade or apartment or outcome.  how tragic would that be!  you were not built for a box.  trust that the God who does love you so much will give you all that you need.  trust.  let life flow like bright lemon yellow days ahead of you with no end and no beginning and no judgments and no needs for anything specific.  who cares if you flunk out of school or lose your job or lose you boyfriend as long as you always know that God has some other path in store for you next.  as one crumbles, another will rise to meet you, and lift you higher still - if you only take the time to sit with yourself and embrace your new direction and learn and prosper and grow and expand from the experience that you have had.